~Janey~

That'll do

2009-12-02T00:20:00.000-08:00

1 December 2009

I went pyramid with my partners in crime and Radzi. Sharmaine didn't join us though. She had to do Christmas shopping with her mom. We watched NEW MOON!! Awesome movie. Heee. Oh, We saw rae, aly, jasmine and ashley in the cinema. Then we saw Sarah - yeah, the cute lil Sarah Kamin. She sat in front. Row C, I think.. We weren't sure whether it was her or not. So we called her and yeah, it's her. Haha. We went to Baskin Robbins after that. I really needed ice-cream at that time. I bought 2 scoops. Eleeza shared with me. Haha. I'm a small eater. :P

2 Decmber 2009

I'm stuck at home. Yay?! :S

Take The Ride

2009-09-08T08:44:00.000-07:00

It feels like I haven't blog in ages. Sigh. Lot of things going on and on nowadays. My life is like a roller coaster but it won't stop like any other ordinary ones. I'm going sick. I feel like puking. I cried for it to stop but it just won't. It's really hard for me to handle all these conflicts. It's giving me a headache. Urgh. I just want everything back to normal.

praying,
Jane

Walking Past

2009-09-02T05:59:00.000-07:00

Urgh. You're everywhere. I just can't get you off my head. I'll think about you in the morning. I'll daydream about you in the noon. I'll dream about you in the night. See what I mean. I thought I'll forget all about you if you're out of my sight for 1 day but it's obviously not working. I had not seen you for days and you're still in my dreams. Urgh.

forgetting,
Jane

Craze

2009-09-02T05:31:00.000-07:00

The second day of school after the holidays. Not bad. Eleeza was asking us funny questions like "Why won't we feel anything when the Earth's turning?" and "Are the clouds moving?". We explained to her but she didn't get. It was a very simple thing but It made everyone of us gone mad 'cause she still doesn't understand. Haha. When we were about to go home, I asked her again whether she gets it or not. She told me "Actually.. No. " I laughed and laughed. It was just so hilarious. Me, Zharif, Lucas, Janesh and Yi-T'ng explained to her for 1 and a half hour and she still doesn't get it. Soraya and Anisah didn't come today. So me, ellie and aqeelah went recess together. Well, we didn't eat of course. We were talking at the bus-stop. We were talking about this creepy guy that text ellie recently. Awkward. :P Oh, ellie and yi-t'ng's birthday is coming and I still don't know what to make for them. Maybe I'll bake for them cupcakes. Yay! CUPCAKES!!

thinking,
Jane

Cold Breeze

2009-09-01T03:29:00.000-07:00

Sigh. It's raining. I want to go to the bazaar. Too bad. I can't. It's just so bored nowadays and I don't know what to blog. No activities going on. I'm really looking forward to play volley this Saturday with reg and all. I really want a fresh new environment. Some new friends but I still wanna keep the old ones. :) It's just so bored and I can't find anything else to do. I'm not quite sure whether It's just me, or everything else that I plan won't turn out right nowadays. It's just weird. Urgh. And suddenly, I feel so far apart from reg, xuen, cy, zh and ben. I don't really see them in school anymore...
P.S. I'm super duper hungry right now. :(

with love,
Jane

Driveway

2009-08-22T01:33:00.001-07:00

Today's officially the first day of holiday. Well, I'm really bored at home. I can't help but to think surfing the net is the only thing I'm gonna do during the holidays. I can't possibly go out every single day?! Well, actually I can. It's just because of the swine flu... It's terrifying. The only thing I'm looking forward during the holiday is the movie marathon with Regina. :)

I'm apparently running in circles. I'll come back to the same spot even though I ran in different directions. I'm still gonna face it someday. So why am I so afraid to face it now? The faster, the better, right? Pfft... :S

Jane

'Googlish'

2009-08-19T05:42:00.000-07:00

Today, we did 2 orals in one day which is tiring and fun! Haha. Anyways, during maths class. We were really pissed off by the teacher. Science teacher let us out late. When we went back to class, teacher asked us to stay outside and scolded us for not being punctual. I was telling teacher what really happened, that science teacher let us out late and everything. He was quite mad then he asked us to get back in to class. In class, grr. You don't wanna know... It was P.J. We had this mini Olympic thingy going on. The balloon part was hilarious! We had to place the balloon at your tummy and your partner's. Then, you have to run and NOT let the balloon drop. Sharmaine and I did the tango. That's why we were slow. We weren't planning on winning. In the end, Soraya won first place with Anisah. Congrats! Haha. Soraya didn't expected it too. We kept the balloons and we wrote notes and drew and did lots of crazy stuff. Haha. It was fun! Haha. I'm glad that I finished the oral too. Both of it. I won't have to bother about it anymore. That is, until next year.. Oh, and we teased Janesh. Don't take it seriously wei! Shar and I take turns to say this:
Janesh
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Each sold separately
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He even said we should record it. Shar and I was planning to do it and put it in facebook. Haha. Then everyone could see how we said it. So far only Soraya, Anisah, Seo, Puteri, Janesh, Kean Hoong, Lucas, Yi-T'ng and some others saw us saying it. :)

blissful,
Jane

Neglecting

2009-08-18T06:12:00.000-07:00

Half of our class was absent today. I was thinking too much. Wondering. Dreaming. About something I shouldn't even bother. I even got a headache after that. I was hitting myself. Asking myself to snap out of it. Soraya was concern. I said "I'm fine.". I don't wanna live in a world of lies. It's terrifying. I'm gonna shop to forget about all this. I don't wanna get myself into this. Again.

Sigh. Tomorrow's the drama. The malay one. I'm shaking. I hope we'll do a great job. It's counted in the PMR thingy. Whatever that is. I just wanna get a good grade but most of all, I just wanna have fun acting. :) Oh oh oh!! Aqeelah made me cupcakes yesterday. It was scrumptious!! Love it. Actually, I love anything that has to do with cupcakes! :P haha. And to think of it, tomorrow we're gonna do 2 oral tests. One for malay, the other one for english. Busy busy busy.

loves,
Jane

Round and Round

2009-08-14T04:44:00.001-07:00

Today's the anual prefect's dinner. Shar! Ellie! Zharif! Janesh! Hilman! Lucas! Izzati! Have a blast today!! :)

♥,
Janeeeee

Healing

2009-08-14T04:33:00.001-07:00

I went out with my mom today. To Sri Muda. It was half past six. I saw something that made me furious. I saw some of the villagers burning their rubbish. Are they out of their minds? Do they even know what's the meaning of global warming? It's not entirely their fault though. I admit that all of us including me made the earth ill. It's all our fault. Wake up people! Take care of the environment. :)

Guidance

2009-08-14T04:20:00.000-07:00

Why is it so hard to put you out of my mind? I'm always asking myself and I feel tired. Exhausted. Just thinking about you. Thinking about how you look at me in the eye. Thinking about how you smiled at me.
I'm always the one at the corner. Waiting for you to notice me. I could just hear my heartbeat whenever I'm near you. When you smiled the other day, I collapsed. I could barely even describe it. Sigh. I really got to put you out of my mind once and for all. I'm sorry.

trying hard to forget,
Janeee

Sick Of Sick

2009-08-09T23:19:00.000-07:00

I guess you're wondering why am I so free to blog and not in school. Well, I'm sick. Sniffles to be exact. Cough too. Don't worry. I went to see the doctor. Everybody's getting sick nowadays. One after another. Weird. When you're sick and not in school, you'll be wondering how's school without you. Will they be happy or sad? Mad or lonely? Haha. Argh, and to think tomorrow's exam! :( I better go study. I hope I won't be sneezing during exam. That would be super awkward. Shoot!!! Today's the oral test! Shoot shoot shoot! Sorry soraya! Sorry anisah! I guess we'll be doing the oral next monday. Sob..

studying,
Jane :)

The Wind

2009-08-07T08:11:00.000-07:00

Eating my cupcakes I made yesterday. Praying that It'll rain. Locking myself in my bedroom. Walking up and down the stairs thinking what to do. I'm totally blank. I thought about making cupcakes but I was afraid I'll turn the kitchen upside down. If I do, I'll be spending the next 2 hours cleaning it. I thought of studying for next week's exam but I don't want to. But seriously, I gotta snap out of it. I better start taking out a book from my bag. Open the book. Look through the pages. Memorise it and close the book. I don't wanna get bad grades. Oh, REGINA!! PUTERI!! ZHARIF!! SEO!! GET WELL SOON! :) and HAPPY EARLY B'DAY JANESH!! :) btw, don't think I forgot about the bet! :P

loves,
Jane

Out Of The Stinky Old Box

2009-08-05T07:24:00.000-07:00

I had a blast today! Eating New York Cheesecake from Secret Recipe. Too bad is not cupcake. Apparently they don't sell. :(
I feel awkward not going recess with them. It's just weird. At least I'm talking to them, right? We're not having any of those stupid fights like 'He likes me more than you' or 'I can't believe you did this to me, I thought you were my friend' but well, the problem is mostly coming out from me. :P I'm currently going recess with Soraya. Since I started going recess with Soraya, I have this feeling that Anisah's not that close with Soraya anymore. The weird thing is Soraya don't feel that way. Neither Anisah. Super weird. It's so hard to talk to them nowadays. Regina.. not so much. I still talk to her often. But.. xuen, chern yuen, zheng hao, ben.. It's super hard to find them right now. I do see them but if it isn't because I'm rushing then It'll be them rushing.
So, yar... ... :)

i want a cupcake,
Jane

Colours

2009-08-04T06:56:00.001-07:00

I was really bummed today. Sharmaine wasn't here and I shared it with Soraya. F.Y.I Shar's not coming tomorrow either! :( I regretted what I did. I was so sure that nothing wrong was going to happen.But... ... Well, I'm absolutely positively sure of one thing, it's over. I could have changed it. I could have make it right. But I didn't. Everybody's asking me, "Hey, are you okay?" I really felt like saying "I'm not." I didn't though. I don't want them to worry that much. The only person that I said "I'm not" to is Soraya. She already knows what's going on. It's like she can read minds or something. Freaky. Feel like eating a cupcake right now. Like they say, " Keep calm and have a cupcake! " :) Oh, and thanks zheng hao! for 'teman-ing' me today! I was so afraid I had to stay at school until 8! Trust me, been there done that, don't wanna try it again.

loves,
Jane

Merry-Go-Round

2009-07-30T05:41:00.000-07:00

Lots of activities going on and on nowadays. I just finished with a drama-Phantom Of The Opera and there's more to come. We're having a malay drama now. We're acting out Penunggu Pusaka.
The cast is:-
Seo - Ana
Zharif - Busu
Me -Alang
Soraya -Mak Teh
Anisah -Sulung
Sharmaine -Lambak
Adam -Siti
Kana -Bomoh
Janesh -Peguam

We're working on the script now and we'll be presenting it on next wednesday. I think. :) We're gonna have a blast! Oh, and me, sharmaine, soraya and anisah will be going for the gotong-royong in our school this saturday. Oh oh oh, and we'll be doing this oral thingy together! It's for english. At first we thought the phantom of the opera was our oral. Then suddenly teacher said we have to do oral again. I guess this is for the second semester or something. Well, the conclusion is, I'll be busy! I haven't even do my geography project!!! Shoot! I'll be busy for the next few weeks. :P

tired,
Jane

Retards!

2009-07-30T05:28:00.001-07:00

soraya and me
me and my laporan
pick-a-boo

It was before hari terbuka when we took this pictures. We were helping teacher with the laporans. And to think of it, we saw everybody's form 1 pictures. Everybody as in melurians! YAY! MELURIANS! anyways, I was suppose to post these photos earlier but it was with sabrina. :) there's more but i'm lazy to post. hehe.

loves,

Jane

Wish I Could Fly

2009-07-30T05:09:00.000-07:00

I'm fine now. Well, not exactly fine but I'm feeling better now. Being apart from them is making me sick. I just wanna talk to them. Say 'hi' or something. I saw a picture today, with all 5 of them. They were all with they're sweet smiles. I was not in it. I was thinking then, was it right for me to go on without them? To put them out of the picture. Maybe... just maybe it wasn't the right thing to do but I had to. I'm confuse right now. Don't know which way is right, which way is wrong. I need someone to guide me. I have somebody in my mind to talk to. I just hope that person will approach to me and ask what's wrong. In the outside I may seem alright but the inside, I'm tearing apart. My situation is getting like Sarah's. Unfortunately, mine happened first. I don't know this is something to laugh at or just stay quiet. It's hard for me to just sleep through it and forget about it. It's just impossible. I guess, It'll haunt me for the rest of my life until it is fixed.

blur,
Jane

See It Once Again

2009-07-24T05:51:00.000-07:00

I feel awkward. Really awkward. I just don't know what else to say. I'm blank. I just, I just want it to be back to normal. Is that so hard? I admit the problem is coming out from me although I don't really know what the problem is. I just admit it. 'Cause I know you wouldn't. It's best when somebody admits it other than we blame each other for it. I'm looking out my window. Waiting. Waiting for the rain to stop and the sun shining upon us. Feeling the breeze. Looking at the clouds. If only, If only you know that it really did hurt my feelings. But, what would you do if you really did knew? Would you come towards me and apologize? Or would you act like you didn't know about it. At all. I'm stuck in a giant hole. Wondering how to get out. Tired and full with hopes. Still hoping that It will be back to normal. :) You were once my best friend. And, you will still be. Forever.

loves,

Jane

2009-07-17T20:18:00.000-07:00

hey, I know it's tough for you. But get this, we're always here for you. We will always support you. :) cheer up!

(short post for a very close friend.)

loves,
janey

I thought so

2009-07-17T20:15:00.000-07:00

I firgured it all out. :)

blissful,
Jane

Tired and Speechless

2009-07-10T08:59:00.000-07:00

I really don't know what's in my mind nowadays. It's weird. Really. That I'll suddenly go to a place where I never ever thought I'll go. It's just so random. It is. Believe me. I think I'm gonna be speechless when I see him face to face. I really don't know how to start a conversation with him after what we've been through. 'Smile my way through, that's what I'll do'. This sentence really mean a lot to me. Right here, right now. It really do. It's just too late to escape, might as well face it. (: I just wanna say that I'm sorry. I really am. There was once where you fill my heart with love and laughter. Thank you. (:

smiles,
Jane

Waiting

2009-07-03T22:14:00.000-07:00

I lost something very precious to me and I can't find it anywhere. I missed it a lot.

How can I be so irresponsible?! How can I just let some dude take it? Now, it's gone. It's been 4 months. I can't find it anywhere. It's gone. I just wish the guy who took it will just give it back to the rightful owner. I want my volleyball back. I just want my volley back. I hadn't play volleyball since my volley's gone. This is much more worst than losing a phone, I guess. I'll just have to wait for miracles to happen.

waiting,

Jane

Smiles On

2009-07-01T05:57:00.001-07:00

Today was the presentation and it was awesome. We were nervous at first. When we got to the stage, we were just having fun. It was really funny. We even added the pink panther theme song and mission impossible. Everybody laughed. We had lots of fun! Oh, reg will be presenting the play tomorrow. So, good luck!!! All the best! (: I don't know what else to blog write now. Blank.

Smiles on. Always,
Jane

Speechless

2009-06-29T09:03:00.000-07:00

Bummer... I was really depressed today. I tried my best to stop them but... (sigh)

Shar, Soraya and Zharif knows what's bothering me. After recess, they tried to cheer me up and i'm glad to say that it worked. We're like a bunch of 3 year olds sitting down and making paper boats and paper hats. Zharif made a few and he was using his so called "imagination". Sharmaine was pakat-ing with him. Soraya was the one who sat down beside me and listen to my every compliments. Thanks you guys!

I really don't know how long must I take to convince them and I too don't know how all these suddenly link to my best friend. Well, at least, she WAS my best friend. I really miss her. We had 10 years of friendship! 10 years. I miss the the things we did together. Shopping, sleepovers, dancing, singing, laughing. Even our x-classmates thought that we're cousins. We practically do every single thing together. We go to the same tuition, we laugh at the same things and sometimes we even have the same results. Oh, and not to forget her blur-ness. But it's all over now. It's all because of a stupid fight. Don't feel like talking about it. Well, the good thing is we're friends now, just not the best type. I still recall that day when I went to parade with Reg. Reg and I saw her. We both look like total strangers. Not totally. Almost. *confused* I just don't know what to talk to her. I was speechless. At that very moment, I was just speechless. It was just weird. o...kay?! Why am I saying all these? O..kay? I got to get some rest. I think I'm coming down with a headache.

resting,
Jane

Tick-Tock

2009-06-27T00:01:00.000-07:00

Making the props for the play, can't blog that much today. Sorry bloggers! (:

with love,
Jane

Leaping

2009-06-26T06:59:00.001-07:00

I'm proud to say that I learnt a new way to look at my problems. I think I better thank Sharmaine and Soraya. They helped a lot. Honestly! Thank you!
Anyways, well, "according" to a friend of mine, today's was THE happiest day of her life! I'm really happy for her. Because, well, I haven't seen her smile that sweet since last month. (: I can see everybody's sweet smiles today. Well, except for one. It was a very devastating day for him. Pity him. Today just wasn't his day. We tried our best to make him happy and he also tried his best to put on a smile. It was a fake smile though. It was really obvious. Hope his okay during the weekends! (: Oh, we practiced our play today in 2T. It was really funny. Everybody came out with great ideas. Speaking about ideas, the ideas were brilliant and not to forget, hilarious! L-O-L! Before school was over, I was chatting with Amelia and Siobhan. We talked about stinky guys when we were standard 4 and someone's secret admire. :P Got to go! Toodles!

smiles on,
Jane

Relief

2009-06-23T05:32:00.000-07:00

Today was absolutely a non-depressing day for me. Well, not exactly. But I can't be picky! Me and Sharmaine had lots of fun chatting and telling secrets. Shh! Don't tell the secret out Shar!!! Oh, and we practiced our play! Wish us luck! We're presenting it next week! Arr!!! *totally panicked* We did lots of group activities in school today. Don't know what day is today, we did every single activity in mahjong paper! What's up with that?! Helloooo! Have you forgotten about manilla card? Anyways, today was a great day for cloud gazing. The clouds were specially pretty today.
Oh, and not to forget the sarcasm and teasing from teacher. I wouldn't forget about that. That was the best part. I guess. It was really funny. You got to know the whole story! *laughs* Currently listening to Kris Allen-No Boundaries. I'm LOVIN' it! A LOT!

blissful,
Janeeeee

TAG! YOU'RE IT! (:

2009-06-21T01:17:00.000-07:00

1. What have you been doing recently?
listening to 'waking up in vegas', 'i do not hook up' and 'ada cinta'
2. Do you ever turn your handphone off?
yar! when somebody's trying to prank me!
3. What happened at 10am today?
i was in dreamland!
4. When did you last cry?
er... last month i think
5. Believe in Fate/Destiny?
always
6. What do you want in life now?
somebody that knows exactly what I'm thinking and understands me. Though, I have one that understands me-Sharmaine!
7. Do you carry up an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
yar, but most of the time I'll just walk through the rain.
8. What's your favourite thing to do on bed?
listen to songs and just dream
9. What bottoms are you wearing now?
bottoms?!?!
10. What are the nicest things in your inbox?
it's a secret! =X
11. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
no. i wouldn't do that.
12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
nope.
13. What was the last movie you caught?
er... i forgot! but i'm watching 17 again SOON!!!!!!!!!
14. What are you proud of?
my best friends and my eyes i guess
15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say and who is it from?
oi! faster rest lar. Later got panda eyes-xing yiow
16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
i do not hook up-kelly clarkson
17. Do you have any nicknames?
Janey, Janey Waney
18. What does the newest text message say and who is it from?
Ahaha.YAY!! (: partner in crime! LOL!-Sharmaine
19. What time did you go to sleep last night?
around 2 am
20. Are you currently happy?
er... i guess so!
21. Who gives you the best advice?
SHARMAINE!!! and XING YIOW!!!
22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
no!
23. Who did you talked to on the phone last night?
no one. i was watching TV
24. Is something bugging you right now?
yes! but it's not something, it's someone
25. Who is the last person that made you laugh?
SHARMAINE
26. Do you like yourself?
yes! absolutely!
27. You want $5 or $10?
$10!!!
28. Do you think you are stupid sometimes?
yes. i'm stupid in believing her.
29. Who is your best best best friend?
Sharmaine
30. What will you do if you like that boy?
i'll tell my bestest friends
31. Who are your favourite stars?
er... none actually. I just like their acting
32. Do you hate your mother in sometimes in some ways?
NO!!! definitely NOT! i love her.
33. Do you had even stead before?
huh? what's this?
34. What type of boy do you like?
a guy that really cares about me and like me for who i am.
35. Now are you, single or attached?
single.
Pass this tag to 10 ppl :
1.Sharmaine
2.Regina
3.Xing Yiow
4.Xuen
5.Chern Yuen
6.Zheng Hao
7.Ben
8.Seo Jinxian
9.Sarah
10.Zharif

1. Would you date number 5?
no. we're just friends.
2. Number 2 just got in a car crash. How do you react?
i'll rush to the hospital!!!
3. You see number 9 with your boy/girlfriend. What do you do?
hey hands off!!! how could you do this to me!
4. You come home and your room has been ransacked by number 4.
xuen... if you want something you could just ask! why in the world do you have to ransack my room?!?
5. Number 1 is acting weird.
sharmaine?!?! are you o..kay?
6. Number 3 and 8 decide to give 10 a haircut.
haha! this i wanna see!!! (:
7. Number 7 just got tickets for you and him/her to go to a concert.
what concert?!?
8. Number 10 takes you to a bar.
PARTAY!!!!
9. Number 4 has to move to the other side of the world.
hey! i'm really gonna miss you! Keep in touch!
10. You and number 8 are being chased by the cops for an unknown reason.
seo?!? what did you do?
11. Number 7 and you are sitting on the couch watching a movie and him/her wraps his/her arm around you.
what are you doing?
12. Number 5 asks you out to dinner.
yipee! where are we going for dinner?
13. Number 9 and you are sitting on a bus.
hey! that guy's cute right?
14. Number 6 calls you in the middle of the night ecause he/she can't sleep.
hey hao, why can't you sleep?
15. Your walking with someone and number 6 runs up and tackles you to the ground from behind.
what are you doing? (:
16. Number 1 is crying one day and you ask him/her why and it seeems him/her girlfriend/boyfriend has dumped him/her.
oh, i'm really sorry to hear that
17. Number 2 offers to bake you a meal. As you sit in the living room the kitchen is suddenly aflame.
ahhhh!!! call 911!!!
18. Number 4 comes to your door one day holding a koala.
aww!!! it's sooo cute! can i hold it?
19. Number 4 just got you an X-Box.
THANKS!!!
20. Number 9 challenges you to a children's card game!
you're soooo on!
21. Number 1 thinks he/she is overweight.
YOU ARE SOOO NOT!!!
22. Number 7 looks lonely.
hey hey! wanna get some drinks?
23. Number 2 asks you rudely to leave him/her alone.
i'm not leaving you alone until you tell me what's wrong!
24. Number 5 and 3 decide to throw a surprise party for you.
aww!!! you guys are the best!
25. Number 6 decided to dye their hair black. What do you say to that?
you do know that if you dye your hair it will still be the same colour.
26. Number 2 tells you he/she is going out for awhile, and then later you hear about a shooting where 2 went.
what happened?!?!
27. You catch number 9 by himself/herself, crying.
you wanna talk about it?
28. Numbers 1, 3, 5 and 6 tackles you all at once.
hey!!! cut it off! hahahahaha!

Puzzled

2009-06-21T00:15:00.000-07:00

The competition/ talent showcase is over. Well, I'm glad that it's over but conflicts and problems are not solved.

P.S. the conflicts is not about choral speaking.

I believe that everybody has they're own chance to voice out they're inner feelings, their opinions. I believe that doing nothing at all won't solve the problem. I believe that being cranky and losing temper to your close friends wouldn't solve the problem too. I still remember, you disagreed what I said, disagreed what I do. Well, I'm used to it. I'm not that depressed. At least, not like last time. (: I'll forget about it, as usual. Oh, and I bought some earrings yesterday. I don't wear earrings so I'm giving it to my partner in crimes! Hope they like it! Oh, I almost forgot! Today's father's day! Blur me... (: No wonder my mom made cupcakes! F.Y.I the cupcakes are SCRUMPTIOUS! :P

I think today's my lucky day! Cause I found a website full of nice pictures! There's like vintage pictures, black and white pictures and lots more. YAY! haha... I've been looking for these pictures since last year! (: I hope I can find my volleyball soon!

puzzled,

Jane (:

Confession

2009-06-19T06:59:00.000-07:00

I felt so stupid and irritated today. It's bugging me all the time! I'm always thinking and daydreaming. I always hope that it isn't true. Unfortunately, it is...

It's really frustrating just listening to her laugh or even talk. The things that come out from her blabber mouth it's just another one of her lies. Which irritates me the MOST! I'm confused, irritated and not to mention frustrated. Enough about that, thinking of it just makes it worst. I was in school today, I felt so bad. I didn't get to spend much of the time with Sharmaine today and it's all because of choral speaking. Not exactly all, she went for prefect briefing too. Tsk tsk.. Oh, and F.Y.I we're performing/competing tomorrow! So, wish us luck! (: I had fun laughing and telling 'secrets' to Regina. Oh, and not to forget that we're going shopping tomorrow! Tomorrow's kinda a shopping and competing day for me. It's like a full action pack! I'm a little nervous 'cause I'm taking one of the solos. I'm afraid that I'll screw it up or something. My line is " Buy one get one free ". I know what are you guys thinking right now. 'It's so short and you're nervous?!' Hey! I'm the one saying! Of course you don't feel nervous. L-O-L

Well, wish us luck! Go Fourians! (:

with love,
Jane

After The Rain

2009-06-18T06:28:00.000-07:00

'I see rainbow,
I see clouds.
You filled mine with sorrow,
I filled yours with smiles.'

As usual...
Go to school
Hang out with my best buddies ( that's always the fun part of going to school )
Laugh
Talk
Laugh
Chat
Laugh
Study
Laugh
But today,
It's a little different
Well,
Almost the same...
Actually...
It's 99% the same
But I have this 1% feeling that it wasn't exactly the same!
And I don't know how to describe this 1% feeling
LOL

oh, got to go now! i'll blog some more other day!

wondering,
Jane

Gone

2009-06-12T20:13:00.000-07:00

I was hoping to see the clouds once again this morning...
But...
Unfortunately,
All i can see in the sky is haze haze and more haze.
I'm even getting sick.
Don't know when could i see my precious clouds again.
I really miss cloudgazing.
But, not as much as i miss my volleyball...
I can't find it anywhere...
Don't know who took my volleyball...

still finding,
Jane

Struggle

2009-06-12T19:58:00.000-07:00

I was suppose to go lagoon today.
But something came up...
Wanted to go pyramid.
But something came up again...
So
It ended up like this:
-bored at home
-lazy to do anything
-blogging

My eyes got all red...
So did my nose.
Tears came down from my eyes.
Don't know what came up to me.
Oh well, FORGET ABOUT IT JANE!

with love,
Jane

commitment, satisfaction, agreement

2009-06-02T05:30:00.000-07:00

went sunway today for alynna's b'day party...
HAPPY SWEET 14th ALYNNA!!! =]

we reached pyramid around 11.30a.m.
went redbox
was REALLY HYPER!
we went asian avenue
reg was crazy about vintage( as usual )
she bought her things and we went to the arcade
xuen was playing rock fever( as usual )
on the way out we bumped into *ahem ahem* and kelvin( a guy that i don't know! xuen knows him though... lol)
anyways!
we bumped fizi, sarah, zz and other volley seniors
on the way to forever 21,
we bumped rae aly and ashley
after we shopped in forever 21,
we bumped connie, jasmine, eunice, su jean, su ean...
then,
we bumped into tan xin( an ex-classmate of ours )
F.Y.I we bumped into lots of people today... we even bump into some form 1 girl (LOL)
i had to go back at 4.30 for a dental appointment...
so i was really rushing
we were looking for sasa...
but we couldn't find it
(disappointment)
monologuing moment:
it's okay jane
you'll get over it...
it's not like some friend of yours will go all the way to sunway just to buy the thing you wanted...

P.S. i'm really crazy about ribbon/ bow ties and checkered shorts! oh, and not to forget CUPCAKES!

after the dental appointment,
me and my mom went to a boutique
I SAW A GORGEOUS DRESS!!!
and the bow tie attached to the dress made it EXTRA GORGEOUS!!!

P.S. i'll download the pictures as soon as i get it from xuen =)

blissful,
Janeeeeeeeee

Dreaming

2009-05-28T21:09:00.000-07:00

Walking through the dark alley,
Looking high up,
I saw a shooting star.
I made a wish.
Hoping that it'll come true.
I walked passed a shop.
The shop that we took pictures together.
Remembering the good times we had together.
Remembering the past.
It kills me inside.
The indescribible feeling of pain.
I'm trying to find my way out from this black hole.

still dreaming and always will be,
Jane

F-R-E-E-D-O-M

2009-05-28T04:36:00.001-07:00

Today's the 2nd last day of school...
Also counted as the last day of school...
Because most of us aren't going school tomorrow!
YAY!!!
anyways...
wow!!!
me, soraya, anisah and aqeelah had soooo much fun today...
before school started...
we were all at foyer C...
puan rajinder was lecturing us, ( as usual )
and she started checking the guy's hair...
we were all laughing because marcus kena from puan rajinder because he slept!
haha...
oh, and nabil was scared that he kena from teacher 'cause his hair was long...
he kept praying...
and puan rajinder didn't notice his 'long' hair...
me seo and soraya laughed...
during the first period...
we got our marks for maths, science and sejarah...
we went for moral...
sharmaine told me that she got to go help teacher,
and seo told me she got to go teman sarah...
and that leaves me soraya anisah and aqeelah...
me and soraya wanted to walk around the school...
we were looking for the pass...
i went to look for adam...
when i went the other class...
me and soraya saw ding and adam crawling out from the desk
we laughed
'what are you guys doing?'
ding just smiled...
me and soraya kept on laughing...
we laughed all the way to foyer C
in class,
we played truth or dare
oh, and to think of it....
we dared aqeelah to say 'i love you' to chern yuen...
we laughed really loud after that...
(p.s. i owe chern yuen a bar of chocolate... grr)
it was time for PJ...
we changed our clothes...
suddenly teacher came to us and ask us to help her...
we agreed...
WE WERE WASHING PLATES IN BILIK MASAKAN
it was kinda fun though...
me and soraya was washing, laughing and talking...
haha
SHARMAINE MISSED ALL THE FUN
=P

with love,
Jane

Wishing Upon A Star

2009-05-22T06:18:00.000-07:00

stargazing...
looking out my window...
looking high up...
looking at it as it shines...
it's pretty...
very pretty...
=)

twinkle twinkle little star,
how i wonder what you are?

wishing upon a star,
Janeeeeeee

The Little Girl At The Corner

2009-05-22T06:01:00.000-07:00

I'm afraid to be thrown to a side.
Unfortunately,
I'm already thrown to a corner.
A dark corner where nobody could see me.
I'm invisible.

I can't make up my mind.
Should I or should I not?
Should I just leave it and walk away?
I'll be happy and the others will be sad... (or maybe they won't even care)
Should I go on acting dumb?
I'll be frustrated and others play dumb.

P.S. i think only reg and sharmaine know what i mean...

still thinking,
Jane

exams... =S

2009-05-15T05:32:00.000-07:00

3 MORE DAYS!!!
i'm NOT ready YET!!!
arrrrrr!!!
i hope the study group tomorrow will help me out!
i need all the help that i can!!!
=S
hope i can get good grades!
i have to...
i really have to...

hoping,
Janeeeeeeeeeeeeee

SHARMAINEYYY!!!

2009-05-15T05:25:00.000-07:00

SHARMAINEYYY!!!
2 days without you in class was BORING!
not THAT boring though...
haha...
it's just that...
i can't hear any jokes and sarcasm from you...
luckily there's zharif, kana, uzair and all...
oh,
we even tease puteri and osman...
haha...

P.S. U BETTER COME ON MONDAY!!! =)

blissful,
Jane

What A Day!!!

2009-05-12T04:49:00.000-07:00

...
I was actually kinda happy when i came to school...
Until...
I thought of something...
Which makes me sad and mad...
I tried not to think about it...
But it just keeps coming back to me...
I looked at the clouds so that it'll distract me from the 'evil thought' but it was no use...
And the worst part is... Sharmaine didn't came to school!!! If she'd came, she'll try her best to make me happy...
...
Reg was questioning me but i really didn't wanna answer...
I'm so sorry that you feel ignored by me...
But i really don't know how to answer you...
It's really complicated...

o..kay... CHANGE TOPIC!!! think about happy thoughts! *trying hard to NOT think about it*

I ATE CHOCOLATE FONDUE AGAIN!!! ( reg must me jealous right about... er... NOW!!! L-O-L)

=D

convincing myself,
Jane

2009-05-09T00:24:00.000-07:00

Today's a very happy and soothing day for me...
I'm listening to my favourite song-bella's lullaby...
Looking at the clouds high above me...
Looking at the squirrels fighting for food...
Looking at my neighbours backyard...
Looking at the birds flying here and there
Eating mom's homemade chocolate fondue
Chatting with Regina...
Telling her how i feel...
B.T.W
I hope you'll find your phone...
P.S. THE GUY/GIRL THAT TOOK REG'S PHONE!!! JUST GIVE HER BACK WILL YA!!! IT'S NOT YOURS!!!
=)

MY FAV!!! CHOCOLATE FONDUE!

blissful,
Jane

My Dearest Friend...

2009-05-08T21:39:00.000-07:00

hey seo...
cheer up!!! don't listen to what they say, as long as you know that me sharmaine soraya sarah don't think that way... =) we really believe in you... if you're still moody... look at the clouds or stars... it always helps me when i'm down... =) loveee ya! muaixxx!

xoxo,
Janeeeeeeee =)

Friends That I'll Never Ever Forget

2009-05-07T03:40:00.001-07:00

Sharmaine
My partner in crimeeeeee!!! She can be very dramatic sometimes but she's really nice. She's always there when i needed somebody to cheer me up. She'll come out with lame topics which made me laugh every single time! And not to forget her sarcasm!!! haha... I'll always loveee you!!! muaixx!

Xuen
My bestie!!! She's always there for me... We recess together, we chat together, we share secrets together and last but not least.... we also emo together!!! HAHA!!! oh, and we even like the same things! e.g. volleyball! starbucks! pink!( wait... i forgot her fav colour... shoot! ) =P muaixx! ily!!!

Reg
Reggie!!! My bestie!!! Sometimes we don't agree with some things... and we find each other annoying... but we'll always work it out... we talked mostly about ben's lame jokes and boys.... oh, and not to forget volleyball!!! haha... and we both loveeeee shopping!!! =] we don't have much in common other than volleyball and chocolate cream chip and cupcakes and shopping and twilight... wait... WE DO HAVE A LOT IN COMMON... p.s. I'm monologuing =P haha...

Soraya
My amigo!!! She's really B-L-U-R!!! but she's really nice! and she's really cute and innocent... She really trust me and i trust her too! I tell almost every secret to her!!! =) oh, and the 1 thing i like about her most is when she doesn't know what me and sharmaine's saying, she'll say 'wad? huh?' her 'quote' ALWAYS makes me laugh! haha =) loveee you always!!!

Seo
SEOJINXIANNNN!!! <3!!! haha... She's the hyper one!!! She's really sweet and thoughtful! She always cheers me up when i'm sad!!! ily!!! muaixx!!! =)

Sarah
SARAHHHHH!!! the one that's alwaysssssss hyper too!!! she's awesome!!! she always there for me! whenever she's right beside me, i won't be emo... at all!!! she and sharmaine's the ones that make me laugh the MOST!!! xoxo!!!

Eleeza
Ellieeeeee!!! We had lots of fun last year!!! and we even fought... but we worked it all out and we're friends again!!! She's also the one with the sarcasm... haha... that makes me laugh... HAHA
almost all my besties makes me laugh... =) love ya!!! =D

Zharif

The guy that makes me laugh almost every time! His really nice! He seriously CAN'T STOP SMILING!!! Me, Sharmaine, Soraya and Seo tested him before... how long could he go without smiling and his record is 7 seconds( i think... or is it 12... i forgot ) haha...

Xing Yiow

A friend and petbro of mine! His really really nice... He'll find topics to make me laugh when i'm down... He knows almost all my secrets... Shhhhh!!! haha... >.<

Chern Yuen/Zheng Hao/Benjamin Ho

YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST!!! They're very nice... We don't talk much though... but we really care about each other. We always support each other and that's why we're still friends... =)

I'm Down With A Headache...

2009-05-07T00:27:00.000-07:00

I was called sick today...
I'm having a really bad headache...
I didn't go to school...
I don't know what's got into me...
My mind's full with unwanted memories
and sorrows...
...
It's complicated...
...
I didn't even tell xuen neither reg...
And I'm trying to keep that way...
Because once they know...
Maybe...
Just maybe...
We can't even be friends anymore...
...
Hope I'll get well soon...
oO...
And I want CUPCAKES!!!
=)

craving for cupcakes,
Jane

Dreaming...

2009-05-02T01:22:00.000-07:00

Daydreaming again...
I do that almost every single time...
And I'm won't get bored of doing that...
I daydream a lot...
Especially in school...
----------------------------------------------
I'm starring out of the window...
Looking at my neighbour's backyard...
Looking at the green grass
Looking at the blooming flowers
Looking at the white cotton candy high up in the blue sky
It's soooo pretty...
LOVEEE CLOUDS!!!

cloudgazing,
Janeeee =]

SUNWAY!!!~

2009-05-01T08:20:00.000-07:00

i went sunway with my best friends today-sharmaine, eleeza, sarah and puteri...
it was really fun!!!
and the best thing is eleeza's my best friend again...
we had a lot of fun...
today was sharmaine's competition ( electone idol )
she was really good...
SHE ROCKED!!! =]
and...
SHE GOT 2nd PLACE!!!
woohoo!!!~
we made banners for her...
'SHARMAINE ROCKS'
'SHARMAINE, WE LOVE YOU'
and
'SHARMAINE'S OUR NO.1'
(i'll upload the photos as soon as i get it from sharmaine and janesh)
ouch...
i did a lot of cheering and shouting...
haha
sharmaine was real awesome!
XD
after that...
we went to the cinema
we wanted to watch paul something er... mall cop?
( i forgot the title XP )
but the queue was freakin' LONG!!!
sooo...
we went to the arcade...
we had lots of fun there...
and then we went to asian avenue...
we did a lot of walking and dancing...
haha
and to think of it...
we did A LOT of CHATTING...
haha
conclusion...
IT WAS FUN!!!
=]

blissful,
Jane

The Best Day EVER!!!

2009-04-30T04:52:00.000-07:00

today was the best day of my life!!!
eleeza forgives me!!!
she said she's sorry for whatever she did...
and when she told me and sharmaine that...
i teared!!!
like seriously!!!
in front of the girls...
luckily all the guys went down...
for ehem ehem...
whatever the ceramah is...
haha
LOVE U ELLIE!!!
and sharmaine...
haha
and we're going shopping tomorrow...
HOW COOL IS THAT!!!
haha

xoxo,
Janeyyyyy =)

Not The Way I Wanted

2009-04-29T04:45:00.000-07:00

...
today...
was a bummer...
some of us were very moody...
i was one of them...
there's some conflicts and misuderstanding between us...
i don't really know what got into us...
i don't really know the true story...
i don't really know why some of us aren't talking to each other...

P.S. sharmaineyyy... thanks for comforting me when i was about to tear... oO... and thanks reg for cloud gazing with me... (the clouds are really pretty today...)

P.S. xuen cheer up... =)

P.S. i'm gonna stop now before i keep P.S.-ing

XD

The Performance

2009-04-28T05:30:00.000-07:00

We...

The choral speakers...

performed that day for hari anugerah in our school...

and we took some pics...

(reg's been requesting the pics for a very long time...she kept bugging me in school... haha)

I'm Over It

2009-04-24T05:39:00.000-07:00

From this very second...
I'm officially over with the 'E' thing...
I think...
To my loving friends...
Thank you for cheering me up...
When I'm sad...
Thank you for making me laugh...
When I'm down...
Thanks A LOT!!!
muaixx!!!
But...
1 thing's for sure...
I still wish she'll forgive all of us...
And be friends...
Or maybe best friends again(If I'm lucky)

still hoping for miracles,
Jane

I Feel Annoyed!!!~

2009-04-24T05:32:00.000-07:00

I feel annoyed and frustrated!!!~
And the worst part is...
I don't even know why i feel this way!!!~
Ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mood swing maybe...
Don't know why...
But...
I was kinda emo today...
Until i chat with seo and soraya...
I laughed A LOT!!!
And thanks to my classmates!!!
They made me laugh by trowing brooms around...
haha...
Thanks u guys!!!
Love you guys A LOT!!!
muaixx!!!~
I hope I'll find the reason soon...
I really wanna get over with it!!!~
I hope i could solve the problem SOON!!!
For now...
I'll just keep on smiling!!!
HAPPY GO LUCKY!!!
=)

Volley MSSD is Over!!!~

2009-04-23T05:18:00.000-07:00

MSSD was over...
it ended yesterday...
although we lost...
all of us were still very SEMANGAT!!!
i didn't get to play... along with xuen...
but i'm okay with it!!!~
i had fun cheering for the team!!!
the score was:-
FOURIANS! v.s. bestari - 5-25
FOURIANS! v.s. puchong perdana a.k.a. BUMBLEBEES - 14-25
FOURIANS! v.s. kembangan - 12-25
=)
oh...
and we drank BUBBLE TEA!!!
i'll miss the bubble tea!!!
*sob*
anyways...
in the bus...
all of us fourians
sang the 'theme song'
Everywhere we go,
People want to know,
Who we are,
So we tell them,
We are the FOURIANS!!!
Go go fourians
Up up fourians
O-ee-eh
O-ee-ya
=)
when we reached school...
we took a group photo ( seniors and juniors )
after that...
the seniors went out to eat
the juniors stayed back... at school!!!
on the way to the toilet...
mei shouted...
i say FOURIANS u say?
we shouted...
OI!!!~
and we kept continuing it!!!
a lot form 2-s were looking out from the window...
and then my classmates looked out...
they were all saying hi to me...
and some of them... especially kana(i think) accused me that i ponteng...
grr!!!
haha...
we walked pass every class and i don't really know why...
haha
we were all soooooooo semangat!!!
^^
i lurveeeee my volley buddies!!!
oO...
and after we ate our lunch at school...
we practiced under the hot sun...
we did put sun block though...
haha

Volley MSSD!!!

2009-04-21T05:20:00.001-07:00

our volley mssd is due.............................
TOMORROW!!!
we're all very excited...
and some of us are scare...
haha
just try our best!!!~
FOURIANS?!?!
oooooo oooooo
haha
or should we use
i say FOURIANS u say OI!!!
FOURIANS?!?!
OI!!!!!~
FOURIANS?!?!
OI!!!
FOURIANS FOURIANS FOURIANS?!?!
OI OI OI!!!~
as the cheer?!?!
either one lar...
haha
GAMBATEH!!!
TRY OUR BEST!!!~
=)

DON"T LEAVE US LIKE THAT!!!~

2009-04-21T05:03:00.000-07:00

to my dear buddy zheng hao...
please don't leave...
i know that we've met for less than 1 year...
but...
you're a really great and special friend to me!
soooooooooooooo...
please don't leave!!!~
pretty please please with a cherry with whiped cream and chocolate chips and sprinkles and wafer and er...er... er... er... er............................. COOKIES on top?!?!?!?!?!
DON'T LEAVE!!!
you'll make all of us sad...
'one goes down the other goes down'
=(
*sob sob*

with love,
Jane

To My Loving Best Friends...

2009-04-17T23:34:00.000-07:00

hey you girls!!!
don't have to worry about me...
I'm officially over with the 'E' thing...
i really thank you guys for helping me through my problems with 'E'
although I'm over with it...
i still wishes that she'll forgive me 1 day...
but...
other than that...
I'm okay...
don't have to worry about me...
love you guys alwaysssss!!!~
muaixx!~

xoxo,
Janey! =]

Back To Normal

2009-04-17T23:22:00.000-07:00

When i read xuen's blog yesterday...
I teared...
I was sooooooo sad...
We really tried to not let her feel left out...
But...
As like what she said...
It's time to get back to my normal life...
Me with Sharmaine...
Reg with Ashley and Rae...
Xuen with Alynna and Lee Sun...
But...
Xuen called me this morning...
She said that she wanna be best friends again...
At first...
I kept backing out...
I felt that my phobia is back...
This is the same thing that happen between me and my x-best friends back at primary school...
They said that they wanna get back with me...
In the end...
My heart was tore into pieces...
After that...
I started with a new friendship...
With reg and xuen...
And when xuen said that she wanna get back with me...
I really don't know whether should I trust or not...
But...
In the end...
We're back to normal...
I hope we'll be best friends forever...
Forever and ever...
And it'll stay that way...

The Undecided Path...

2009-04-16T05:03:00.000-07:00

Are they really my true friends?
Or not?
Sometimes i really wonder whether they're my best friends or just pals?
It's just that...
Whenever I'm with them...
I won't laugh that much...
And when I'm with Sharmaine, Soraya, Seo, Sarah...
I'll laugh...
LOADSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!~
=)
I really don't know where to go?
Which to choose?
I just need more time to think about it...
Give me some time...
I'll firgure it out...
...
Just give me some time to sort things out...
=]

To A Friend Of Mine

2009-04-15T05:25:00.000-07:00

hey girl!
i know you've gone through some ups and downs...
but...
always remember that you're lucky to have a friend (me =] ) to comfort you...
to make you laugh...
to make you smile...
stay strong...
never give up!
loveeeeeeeeeeee ya alwayssss!!!
muaixx!

xoxo,
janey waney! XP

I Tried... Very Hard...

2009-04-15T05:16:00.000-07:00

I tried...
Very hard...
But i just couldn't forget the times we shared when we were best friends...
The times we laugh
The times we chat
The times we joke
And the times we shop! =]
There was once that i really tried to not think about her...
But...
I just couldn't...
Whenever she sees me and never said hi to me...
I felt really hurt...
I teared...
And the only thing that could cure this is for her to forgive me...
But...
Unfortunately...
Maybe......
This day would never ever come...
So...
For now...
The only thing that i could do now is pray...
And...
Try to move on...
And not think about it...
Just keep movin' on...
That's what I'm gonna do...
...
=]

the heart of a confused friend

2009-04-05T01:10:00.000-07:00

i'm really confused...
i don't know what's wrong and what's right...
i don't know which to trust...
i really don't know whether i've chose the right friend...
it's just that...
the friend of mine...
won't keep my secrets...
she doesn't care how i feel when she hurt my feelings...
and yet she said that she's always invisible when she's with me...
...
what am i suppose to do?!?!
...

Forgive and Forget...

2009-03-27T21:34:00.000-07:00

...
i have a friend...
a best friend...
but now...
we're not even friends...
it's all because of a letter...
a stupid letter which i didn't even write...

it was the middle of April...
'E' and i were best friends...
until one day somebody( our best friend ) gave her a letter...
a letter that hurt her feeling real bad...
before 'E' read that letter...
i saw it...
i tried to stop that 'somebody' but it was no use...
the 'somebody' even asked me to keep it as a secret
and not tell 'E' that it was her that wrote the letter
i promised her because it was none of my business...
i don't want to get involve in the fight between my 2 best friends...
in the end...
she found out...
she found out at the middle of August...
i don't know how she found out...
but...
she did...
she knows that 'somebody' wrote the letter...
and suddenly...
i was involved too....
'somebody' told 'E' that i kept the secret...
she was mad at me... mostly sad...
that night....
i sms-ed her and apologize...
but she didn't forgive me...
until now...
i still apologize to her...
but she still can't forgive me...
it's been more than 7 months...
i miss laughing with her...
sharing secrets together...
talking about the gossips at school...
and even...
shopping together...
i miss her a lot...
i just hope that one day she'll forgive me
and my other bestiez that broke her heart...
every night...
i still pray to God...
that she'll forgive us...
that she'll be our best friend again...